So normally I would keep this up, but I’m afraid I am leaving this tumblr.
You see, I can’t switch my default blog with my this blog without shutting this down completely… and so I made another tumblr. Just to make things easier.
Hello 2010, this is my new tumblr: heymadifenton.tumblr.com
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My great aunt and uncle got me hooked on Paul McCartney when I was younger and I just dug up this cd the other day. From what I found on Wikipedia, it’s his third full length classical album, most pieces inspired by his Liverpool working class roots. I think it’s really cool that Paul McCartney has ventured into other genres and created music.
Today I’ve only been listening to classical music and it is so relaxing. I went through a phase in middle school where all I would do is listen to classical music and this was one of my favorite cds to listen to.
reflections of the past aren’t necessarily a bad thing, for sometimes they can make a person realize they need to make certain changes for the better.
in this case, focusing on the positive :)
Lately I’ve put on such facade that basically says screw you, I don’t give a crap. I’ve felt so angry about things I have been wanting to achieve even though I know that’s not going to get me anywhere.
On the outside, I make it seem to be such a conspiracy— the fact that I didn’t get into UGA early action and was deferred to regular decision. I have good grades. I’m involved in school. I’m taking AP classes…
But deep down, I’m just kicking myself. I’m constantly comparing myself to other people and making them seem so much better than I am. But the truth is, they aren’t any better than I am. I’m just different. I have other strengths and weaknesses and I’m surrounded by people who are just good at stuff that I love to do. They just get it. But hey, maybe it’s just not my thing or maybe it’s just not my time to shine. I am still finding my way and I’m hoping that I’ll find my niche in the future.
I need to remember that I still have so much more time in my life to live. Wasting all of that time energy inside of me on being so spiteful is stupid. I should be channelling all of that energy towards the colleges that want me for who I am or showing colleges like UGA that I am more than a bunch of numbers and figures, you know, actually doing something rather than just sitting there and thinking about it.
At least I know that I am going to college. I’ve been accepted to the University of Montana and they have given me a scholarship. Colorado State University sent me a letter GUARANTEEING me one of three scholarships they offer… and I’m eligible for all three if I apply by February 1st and I get accepted. Sure, they probably are not the most amazing schools in most people’s eyes, but I like both of them A LOT. It doesn’t matter if it looks inferior— It’s my education, not theirs! My parents are so proud of me and it makes me feel good and worthy of something…which I haven’t felt much these past few years.
I know that I might not necessarily keep this attitude up constantly because ups and downs are only human. I just can’t let stuff like this constantly get me down. I’m really going to try and work on it in 2010 because this past year, it’s clearly gotten the best of me and I can’t take it anymore.
2010 is going to be the time to be proactive (NO MORE PASSIVE VOICE FOR MADI FENTON!).
Now who’s with me?
According to Jonathan, what makes most videos “dumb” is when one of the people in the video asks if they are being filmed. Haha. Can’t really say I disagree.
So I’ve been tempted to put a pokemon as my profile picture on facebook… but I think that I would look really lame for doing it.
Dragonite was my fave. 100 HP BABY! :)
Things I Love:
I am happy. I am thankful. I am so blessed. I love this time of year.
I am a seventeen year old college bound student who is excited to move on to the outside world. I enjoy fried rice, mix cds, and aspire to be a clinical psychologist so I can help people.
